Wow, don't be so emo mate. Its the internet, no-one takes any of this shit seriously. Well, I can at least vouch for myself
That's not an excuse. You're not literally a retard; you just act like a douche sometimes. No-one is inherently or naturally a douche though; "doucheism" (quite unlike mental retardation) is a choice one makes. If you know you're being a douche, and you know being a douche is an undesirable trait, then just stop doing it.
You make a logical argument, but I think you'd need to meet me to understand. I'm really sick of sounding like a baby, and shit, but, I'll say this in whole, once, so I never have to again. -I'm paranoid -I've got depression, and I'd probably say a number of other disorders psychologically (none like retard or anything, but, well, things like depression and shit). I post on this forum because I hate life so much I resort to an internet forum to make myself happier, which failz, epically. -I'm an attention seeker, whether it be negative or positive, I crave it. I hate this aspect, but I need it. Hence why I'm making this post (in a sense when you look at it). I've grown up living in an abusive house, with abusive parents, and even though I hate the god damn bitches, when my dad died, I just died inside as well, and haven't ever been the same. -I'm a compulsive liar. I'm at the stage where I really just say shit, then I can't take it back, and don't care enough to let it bother me, but, I've formed an emotional (this is how sad I am) attachment to this place, so, I'm essentially so intense about it I can't stand it when I'm hated. So, I apologise for anything I have done, and anything I will do, but, now that I've said this, I won't be doing any of the poor me, self hating thing anymore. ****, it felt good to get that out. What??
